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My Own World

Life in my fantasies...never in reality

P.S: seldom updated

Superficial

bn
Bernice
7th Oct'93

In a dream where reality never existed

Wish

If only dreams came true

Owe

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Still there

Memories long forgotten
  • March 2007
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    Them

    Clairiebearie
    La polarbearxk
    6D'05 <3
    ototo chan~
    Word of warning, my blog is seldomupdated, his is NEVER updated =3

    Utter


    想飞到那最高最远最洒脱

    In the end, I'll just be myself and try to fly. Or shine. Since a number of people have been talking to me about shining. Hmm.

    Saturday 23 January 2010
    2:08 pm


    LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
    The best way out is always through - Robert Frost

    Perhaps it is. This post is to redeem myself. Nope, i didn't post a SINGLE thing about BSC and nope i haven't posted in ages...and no one reads this anyway so, ya.

    Life hasn't been nice to me =\

    First, SYF.

    We want GwH, like DUH...but zzz *stress*

    Then, school.

    omg, i just want to stab myself sometimes.

    Then my brother.

    One word: Annoying.

    Then, myself.

    I really hate myself alot sometimes. Why the hell am I so lazy, and sleepy, and boring, and never carrying out what i plan? omg, i sound so emo. This is BAD.

    I need to start mugging AND doing homework AND staying awake in class.

    I've been staying awake in class, kudos to my partner.

    Homework? let's not talk about it. did i mention how atrocious my memory is?!

    it's seriously...zzz

    All in all, i sound like some emo kid but i'm so going to live through this. Afterall, whether you think you can or you can't, you're right. I'm so right. I can do this. Afterall, guess you fail before you succeed. I NEED to change. Like, seriously. Throw the laptop away somewhere. Start going to the gym(? doubt it XD).

    Most improtantly, start making it a habit to study. like, ALOT.

    AND

    pay attention in class.




    I'm so getting out of this, by going through it.

    Monday 13 April 2009
    9:24 pm


    LIVING.out.of.REALITY;

    Empty streets
    I stare at the roads
    A gust of wind blew across the street
    Rustling leaves seem to echo
    through the inhumane silence

    It's like a broken scene
    Never meant to be
    A voice whispers to me

    Perhaps she is right
    If my life were a crystal ball
    It's definately broken now

    My heart is closed
    shut tight
    oblivious to everything

    I stare at the empty streets
    Prying pry open my heart
    and then i saw

    The cracks in my life
    and through it i saw people
    The streets are no longer empty

    Wednesday 11 February 2009
    9:45 pm


    LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
    Poetry

    Bored so here's some stuff i wrote some time ago um last year i think XD

    A little bit of blue
    a dabbling of green
    a shade of red
    a splash of yellow

    the myraid of colours
    all around me
    the colours of life
    surround me

    A little bit of dejection
    A dabbling of jealousy
    a shade of anger
    A splash of happiness

    The myraid of feelings
    All around me
    The colours of life
    surround me

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    Her heart is pounding
    yet it seemed to freeze
    upon the sight of him
    oh the sight of him

    her hands are trembling
    yet she steadies them
    upon the sight of him
    oh the sight of him

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    it is a deep abyss
    dread i mean
    one step at a time
    u are forced to walk
    towards it

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    Imagine
    A world without pain
    what will we learn?

    Imagine
    A world without hate
    What will we love?

    Imagine
    A world without failure
    What will success be?

    Imagine
    A world without lies
    What will truth be?

    Imagine
    A world without conflict
    What will peace be?

    Imagine
    A world without....

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    Walking on the path of reminiscence
    Passing the fields of memories

    Life goes on long
    after the thrill of living is gone

    Forget reminiscence
    face the front
    stop walking backwards
    show your face to reality

    Pehaps it isn't so harsh
    when you keep away from
    the path of life

    And stay on the paths
    of reminiscence
    of fantasy
    of dreams

    yet the path of life
    will always find you
    it will always find you

    so life goes on
    you can choose to reverse into the past
    or
    Walk on to the future
    using the gift of the present

    It's your choice.
    Just.Imagine....

    Wednesday 28 January 2009
    10:00 pm


    LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
    Define yourself

    "Although your acceptence will thrill me, it will not define me, for i am, always, my mother's daughter"

    That was a quote from Spanglish, a movie i just finished watching in tuition (yes, i watch MOVIES in TUITION, jealous? XD) Anyway, that is the last sentence of Christina's personal statement. She's applying for a scholarship at a university, an illegal immigrant from mexico.

    Well, it got me thinking and i was looking out for something to blog about XD.

    So, defining oneself. I thought it would be easy, then i realised, i always tell myself 'be yourself, don't follow others or be likw others' but, who am i? I mean, i am me, but who is me then?

    so, i shall try to define myself XD plus, make u read this pointless post and allow you to procastinate(?)

    so, I'm forever a daddy's girl, that's for sure. no question. okay, making a list XD
    (i know, i'm really really REALLY VERY bored and have nothing better to do)
    Things about me:
    1) Daddy's girl
    2) Mummy's girl too~
    3) Can't be bothered to confront
    4) Ignores instead
    5) But, when it comes to the people i care about....XD
    6) I have a consience, but i'm not kind, well, i'm not kind all the time, at least.
    7) I hate disappointment
    8) I fear failure
    9) On the whole, most primary school teachers should go to hell (not all)
    10) actually, most teachers should go to hell, primary or not =/
    11) I avoid those whom i don't really well, get along with
    12) I hate cigarrette smokes. and I admit that if i first met a person and he smokes? well, first impression points goes below zero. if it's a she? worse.
    13) Escapism. I escape into books. They are my life savers. I love books.
    14) I need good grades to survive and remain sane. (that probably explains why i'm going insane)
    15) I care alot about friends and family. ALOT.
    16) Straightforward. too straightforward, if i should say so
    17) Straightforward to the near breaking point of being insulting and rude (something i've been trying to change, of course. trust me, i was worse before)
    18) I hate confrontations, but i don't fear them.
    19) I may be sarcastic at times
    20) maybe a lil pessimistic too (but hey, that's being practical, kay? fine, i know, pessimist here)
    21) I hardly lose my temper, but, you would NEVER want to see me in my rages. ^^
    22) I don't get annoyed very often either, but if i do, watch out.
    23) the fact that i'm sane enough to study is driving me insane.
    24) I tend to do ALOT for what i want. that means: good grades
    25) I love music. CO rocks
    26) I hate math and physics.
    27) Ignorance is bliss


    i can't think of any other...neither can i think of an umbrella term for it all =/

    EPIC FAIL.

    dang it.

    well, at least i managed to waste your time (as well as mine)
    *goes to cook and eat dinner*

    Saturday 15 November 2008
    6:18 pm


    LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
    The hols~

    so. hols started on 24th oct. had school still till last friday. STILL have CCA. not really complaining about CCA though. XD

    I had FINALLY managed to read Brisingr. It rocked. basically, what the book did was to tie up most of the ends and loopholes and gets everything ready for the last book.

    !!!SPOILERS!!!!

    He got a new sword. AND i cried at the chapter of revelation: BROM IS ERAGON's FATHER that, first of all, is *shock* esp since everyone has registered that oh...eragon's morzan's son.....THEN

    OMG it's BROM NOT MORZAN!!!!!!!!!!

    yup, basically, that's what happened to me. then at the memory of Brom speaking to Eragon as his father and not an old story teller, a rush of emotions came. I really felt for Brom, the pain of wanting so much to tell Eragon and yet keeping it a secret? that is so painful >< A thousand hot knives slicing through you. Then eragon, he misses Brom enough already, now he finds out that Brom is his FATHER?!

    that was one HUGE spoiler. another HUGE spoiler coming next.

    XinYi totally spoiled that part for me. otherwise, if i weren't expecting it, i may have shed a few tears.

    Oromis and Glaedr...

    they

    DIED

    now, that, is enough to make anyone's heart break
    okay

    !!!!!!end of spoilers!!!!!!!!!

    XD

    i read all three books twice over during the past week. tomorrow, i plan to tidy up this:

    before i go for CCA too, wonderful eh? i can't wait to feel so accomplished when i actually finish it. XD

    ~till next time.

    *promises herself she'll update at least when she's in Beijing*

    Wednesday 12 November 2008
    9:45 pm


    LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
    no sense post

    I was just thinking...why am i not so excited about tomorrow?

    i was so looking forward to the end of the exams, yet now i look back and here i am, the exams almost over and yet...i just feel as though i know not what to do.

    of course, i'm still happy that THE EXAMS ARE OVER

    just that i haven't really planned properly what i'm going to do....the obvious thing to do is SLACK but...slack by doing WHAT?????

    Unseen prose is tomorrow and i'm slacking now by typing this lol and there is this game luna introduced to me...and got me caught into it >.>

    hmm perhaps i'll get out of this addiction...soon yes. SOON i hope. =/

    anyhoos, A math etcetc is over blabla

    i'm typing rubbish and i have no need to rant so far i'm just typing whatever comes into my mind now....^^; which is kinda...nothing...nada....-.-

    ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
    umumumumumumumumumumuum

    that pattern's kinda nice O.O ok i seem to be getting desperate on getting something to type about.

    oh oh

    I realised, that when i type, i use my left hand more than my right, and often, after typing endless notes (thus protecting what little soul left in my right hand) my left hand....gets achy D: it's pretty weird in a sense cuz i've never noticed it before..well i didn't notice it till after i had tped out chapters of geog and SS worth of notes...which took DAYS DAYS i tell you, yes that was how i found out

    wait the alarm rang

    brb lol to off the kettle and back
    that was weird why did i type it..oh well, i'm typing whatever comes into my head so meh

    nothing is running through my head
    perhaps i should go lie on my bed
    we often lie while we lie down
    though our consience will frown
    i'm bored and i know this poem sucks
    but i have nothing to do so u're out of luck

    cuz...u have read it XD

    ok that was random...
    it just came into my head? i'm going to make this post a longlong one by typing nonsensical stuff, however, thinking back, i have already filled this post WITH nonsensical stuff...

    so to make sense out of no sense

    i shalll stop typing and actually go to do my unseen prose....no not do, i'm too lazy for that. aha, i shall READ THROUGH it sounds nice READ THROUGH

    yes
    so i should stop typing shouldn't I
    ok i'm still typing
    i guess my hands don't wanna study?
    still typing

    ok
    STOP
    UNSEEN PROSE
    go do

    Monday 6 October 2008
    3:57 pm


    LIVING.out.of.REALITY;

    I'm guilty of wasting time AND electricity, but don't care, i'm damn bored.

    for now.

    i only have A maths and chinese left and i'm ignoring them now =D

    Just had this 'meeting' for the beijing immersion programme, turns out that there will be abt 22 girls, from nanhua, anglican, us st.nicks...nanyang also going but they aren't going at the same time as us i think....going off on 1st Dec and we'll be there for 42 days! for some reason, i'm mingled with excitement and kinda scared in a sense what will happen, what we will do etc. Well, i hope it'd be good fun PLUS my chinese will improve, it just HAS TO IMPROVE

    ok i'm not as desperate as i sound....i mean, lessons in chinese??

    anyhoos...i'm still bored

    i'm typing with my left hand now cuz my right hand is still lifeless >< oh yes, my right hand...SS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!! needed to say that hee :P

    um A maths now =D

    actually, it isn't a smiley face, it's zzzz

    Friday 3 October 2008
    11:41 am


    LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
    J'en ris...

    hee, i'm just very very very BORED now.
    yes

    i'm laughing now. and to share with u why i'm laughing....i shall blog this. time to DE-STRESS EVERYONE!

    Confusing Chinese Names

    Caller : Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan (anyone)?


    Operator : Yes, you can speak to me.


    Caller : No, I want to speak to Annie Wan (anyone)!


    Operator : You are talking to someone! Who is this?


    Caller : I'm Sam Wan (Someone). And I need to talk to Annie Wan (anyone)! It's urgent.


    Operator : I know you are someone and you want to talk to anyone! But what's this urgent matter about?


    Caller : Well... just tell my sister Annie Wan (anyone) that our brother Noel Wan (no one)has involved in an accident. Noel Wan (no one)got injured and now Noel Wan (no one) is being sent to the hospital. Right now, Avery Wan (everyone) is on his way to the hospital.


    Operator : Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital, then the accident isn't an urgen t matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!


    Caller : You are so rude! Who are you?


    Operator : I'm Saw Lee (Sorry).


    Caller : Yes! You should be sorry. Now give me your name!!!
    ======================================================
    ALSO, this is hilarious ...

    Why Chinese shouldn't have Christian names:

    Anne Chang => Dirty (Mandarin)
    Anne Chin => Keep Quiet (Mandarin)
    Faye Chen => Dusty (Mandarin)
    Carl Cheng => Buttock (Hokkien)
    Monica Cheng => Touching your buttocks (Hokkien)
    Lucy Leow => You are dead (Hokkien)
    Jane Tan => Frying eggs (Mandarin)
    Suzie Leow => Lose till death (Hokkien)
    Henry Mah => Hate your mum (Mandarin)
    Corrine Tai => Poor fellow (Hokkien)
    Paul Chan => Bankrupt (Mandarin)
    Nelson Tan => Bird laying eggs (Mandarin)
    Leslie Tong => Rubbish Bin (Mandarin)
    Carmen Teng => Leg hair long (Hokkien)
    Connie Mah => Call your mother (Cantonese)
    Danny See => Squeeze you to death (Hokkien)
    Rosie Teng => Screws and nails (Hokkien)
    Pete Tsai => Nose droppings (Hokkien)
    Macy Koh => Never die before (Cantonese)


    hahaha! =D

    i laughed so much at this, even though i'm supposed to be doing ahem PHYSICS. C'est l'important ok physics time. ja ne.

    P.S. J'en ris means I laugh in french...at least, i think so XD
    P.P.S. My french sucks.

    Tuesday 30 September 2008
    8:06 pm


    LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
    Time is too precious

    yes, time is precious, and i'm currently wasting it to write a poem XD


    The clock is ticking
    my heart is beating

    Time is such a precious thing
    Nothing like a summer fling

    One moment theres too much of it
    next you find you have none to fit

    ticking ticking slipping slipping
    time is like the pipe leaking

    it never stops
    there isn't a top

    It never waits
    i guess its fate

    The time is ticking
    My heart is beating



    hey, i'm bored ok.

    Sunday 28 September 2008
    3:08 pm


    LIVING.out.of.REALITY;